dear journal... Jan 30 - Feb 6

After the long wait
at last, I had the chance to take
a day off to cleanse and feast
someplace somewhere.. anywhere

Saturday was it
I asked Grace out with me
along with our Company Nurse
she was also invited by NJ
NJ is the kind who would frequent
high society gatherings...

NJ is one attractive lady
that you wouldn't expect to suddenly
go nuts and crazy when around with friends.

There was a time when they went
to Tagaytay and as they were eating..
A Family of musicians turned to visit
their table to play music with Classic
and ethnic instruments...
They danced along with it.

and when asked what song they like
She requested R. Kelly's Ignition..
The Old Guy asked: What is that?
hahahhaha

right after she was featured
in some local magazine..
She resigned from her job
and pursued a career in publication
product ad placement PR person.
Cool..

The last time we met was
at Grace's Birthday
At some Bar in Makati,
along with Paul The cool American dude
and Deante our Hip Jamaican friend.

And Talking about Jamaica..
Lets go back to my Day off getaway..

Yes, Saturday the fifth..

Bob Marley should be celebrating
his 60th birthday..
Rollie invited me to Xaymaca
he is a regular at this Bar in Q city
the Premier spot for local reggae acts
and rastafarians posiuers and not..

Me and Rollie converged at around 10
the place was packed..
foreigners and locals..
dreadlocked hairs and some Koreans
the second floor was polluted with Pot smoke
Tempting .. as some groupies were in a session

Rollie introduced me to the head waitress
and the bouncer. Too bad we weren't able
to bring the V-Cams to chronology the event

The first band was fine and rumpy
but not until a band called Milagros Dancehall
took the queue .. These guys are crazy
and after they played their own tracks
i was surprised to hear them
playing covers of Chaka Demus and Pliers
Tease Me and Murder she wrote
which i haven't heard for a long time...

when the last band was playing Myra Ruaro
appeared on stage out of nowhere..
that time i told Rollie im going to disappear..
i went to the washroom at the next floor
when i came out a girl outside
was waiting for her turn to go in..

she asked if i had a light ..
"Do you come here a lot?"
those types of questions, hahahaha
She said she was with friends ...
"wanna have some fresh air?" that stuff...
we had a small talk at the parking lot
This Karen Mok lookalike is one smart girl
and i asked her if she wanna eat somewhere
and for sure you know what's next.

these stories should find their way
to the pages of FHM magazine..
Step Aside El Gimikero hahaha

But let's give it to fiction...
My kids might read this in the future..

anyway i guess it was worth
having a day off at last...



and Oh..

Happy Birthday Bob !

i enjoyed your party !!!

dear journal... Dec 27 - Jan 30

I finally moved up to the Fifth floor
still adjusting to the tiring ladder
I would have to hop about 300 steps up
just to get to my unit.

Mom got to a flight for the southern city
during the time I was transferring
she had to accompany my grandma and
our Evil Aunt from Europe ..
another close relative of ours died.

just last weekend was spent with friends
night swimming in some private pool
a place called Pansol Laguna..
Too much for Me and Mia's secret world.

By the time I got home,
a guy was playing a guitar and sitting
on my bench straight outside my door.
Just discovered my next-door neighbor
to be a musician for a band,
just like me before.
to my surprise, we did also share
the same influences and tastes of artists
which he never had with his bandmates
so we drank the whole night playing
Smashing Pumpkins and old Duncan Sheik songs
hope Fab was here...

I like my job
when most of my officemates are sick of it
some even have quiet talks of resigning
and moving to another office with a higher pay
I'm probably the most dedicated person
in my department as far as I am aware..
but still do keep a very low profile..
avoiding attention..

even when commended by customers calling in
personally requesting a supervisor
I still refused and told them nobody was still around..
when most people are dying for these sorts of things
to get them promoted ... would be quite a break
But i know myself better...
and have my own standards for judging myself..
helping out people who don't know shit,
is already rewarding enough..

I go to the office every day..
acting just like another average employee
saying hi and hello to this and that,
without my officemates not even knowing
On the other side, my life is fancy for me..
they just know me as their regular officemate,
I guess ... that's all they need to know ...
i won't even know if some officemates of mine
knew I had these Multiply logs...
well i guess ill just keep it that way..



Just before the break of the year
I called almost all of my friends,
just to greet them and check if they were ok.
They were.. I think..

I finally had a talk with Ross,
that for most of the time her phone's off
I'm really happy for her.
for discovering the joys of
of being in a relationship.
Go, Ross...


it has also been a long time
I haven't had a talk with Grace
ever since I left the Condo Unit
we used to live in along with 3 others.
And I wonder what happened to Christine
after the FHM offered to pose half-naked
I guess she got rich that's why she left us.
Me and Grace managing the bills for our apartment
was an outpour. With us Out being Poor.

i remember the time when all of us went
to Tagaytay just to breeze from our daily
stressful jobs.
going out in the country and melting ourselves
with scenic views and horseback riding at night.
that was a hell of a time...
though we had to work in different workplaces
and schedules, we still managed to put up
house parties even with the stiffest budget.
I miss living with Grace, hope she's Ok.

Sharing a nicely furnished pad with 3 girls
having to have your own room as the girls were
sharing the big one, was fun ..
it was not until Ron moved in that I had
somebody to drink along with...

most of the time in the old pad
I would sit alone on a small ladder and watch
the window across the blinds
drinking and listening to tunes like this.
Ron would sometimes wake up to go to the bathroom
at dead midnight and catches me at those moments
and he would sometimes ask who I was waiting for..
I would just smile.. coz I really don't know..

who or what but I feel it...

I'm sometimes bothered by my purpose ..

or is it just an echo from the far recesses

of my mind...

i really don't know but i have an idea..

someday could always wait...


Someday ...

dear journal... Oct 23 - Dec 27

well, again as expected ...
i celebrated christmas at the office
it has been along time since
i slugged a log in this haywired journal.
just too damn busy from these endless days
at work..pleasing our capitalist employers


just a few months from now
figuring out things would certainly change
i know it will, very much
basing on my tried and tested
mathematically-based theories that only
arrogant self-proclaimed wannabees
would contest and end up chewing thier
own worthles pride.. pride hahahahaha


Too much for the real big
apartment space i'm occupying
paying around US$180 a month is a pain
considering im staying alone..
talking to the building administrator
lucky for me there is vacancy over
the 5th floor which cost much less.
considering the room is much smaller

there is just no need for staying in
hell big space when most of the time you
just aint there..
but rather friends who manage to stay in and
party with themselves the whole week long
in my absence...
there was even a time when i got home
that i dont anymore recognize the people
who were sleeping on the floor..


life is a matter of perspective,
which i came short with by the way..
living with the wrong people is a mistake
dealing with wrong friends is a mess..

moving to a different city or apartment maybe?
would be a diffinite strike at destiny again.
time can always wait...
as what physicists say it slows down 14 seconds
every century .. or is it just the way
we are counting on it to slow down.. hahaha

the new year comes again
wondering what resolution i would have this time?
i thought, stop smoking ?
let's see... what`rr benefits anyway..hmm
health ? money ?
let's say a pack of smoke cost around US$1.00
i would have around US$365.25 in dec next year,
thats already a desktop computer running 512MB
ill think about it.. hahahahhaha

having so-called new year resolutions
is phlasing ... another word i invented.
people`s philosophies change overnight.
no matter how stiff they are..
sometimes life is like riding a bus
and you`ll never know who`ll sit beside
you on the next stop..
like choosing the red pill and
not exactly know why you did and
what`ll happen next..
remember the box of chocolates?

So the next time someone tells you,
or somehow gave you the impression
they are principled and will stick with
thier principles whatever...
watch them .
they are just trying to impress you
coz they already are with themselves
hahahahha!!!

remember,
Imagination is more powerful than Knowledge.
and that if Aiza is better than MAtet,
Sex is better than Christmas (just kidding)heheh

So good luck to those who are always on the move.

and Happy holidays , Merry Christmas and
Happy New Year to everyone...

coz i never get to celebrate mine..


anyway its not my Birthday.. just greeting..


Feliz Navidad y Feliz Año Nuevo !