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Sunday, August 29, 2004

dear journal... Aug 23 - Aug 29

Went down of the building at around 6 AM
after a whole shit of workload done overnight..
my eyes were still hurting from the monitor.
when a bang of camera lights splashed me..

there was a Film crew for a TV add..
and they were filming infront of the building
but i was way ahead sleepy header..
no time to check the models.. Damn!

Such much for not reporting for work.

The production crew told me though
that it was for a Pizza Add
waitta minute i dont see any pizza?
but they did have rain effects..

apparently it has been another boring week.
not much interesting stuff goin on...
living in a lonely apartment is one thing.
a dolphin attitude is another..

reminescing on how my life was ..
though was quite entertaining..
i just dunno why...

most of my friends are married now..
some i never heared of anymore..
sometimes i even think im cursed..

mid afternoon i spend time gazing at
the wide window looking down the building
its lonely up here..who would have thought.

most of the time i end up thinking what
i really want in life.. A lot...more to it..
did i misjudged myself again..?

we have always been taught that
nothing matters more than the present.
or is it the future ?

just as goes to the rest of anti-analogies
which is which and how anyway?

`if birds of the same feather flock together"
and why do `opposites attract" ?
"Actions speak louder than Words" ?
whoever said the "Pen is Mightier than the Sword"?

ahhh... but one smart dude once said..
" the Past is History, the Future will always
be a Mystery. This Moment is a Gift,
that`s why its called the Present.


i think ill just go back fishing for thoughts...

wishful fishing... thats what i call it..
Photo From : Kim Nicanor / Crazy Neighbor

Sunday, August 22, 2004

dear journal... Aug 11 - Aug 23

Spending time in the new apartment is a drag
not quite thrilling as usual
ahh.. yes.. Her name... Claire
the coffee was worth it.
after a routine of exchanging silly text messages
we ended up deciding to watch
The Villagethe M.Night Shayalaman thing and his same formula.
why does he always have to appear on his films?
Thanks to Roy...he manages G4 cinemas
it really pays to have friends
We didnt even have use for tickets
we just passed thru the guard and the ticket lady
Claire was impressed..
as i know thats the point of it..

yabang no? e ano pa nga ba?

as for the rest of the details

goes in the shadows...

Well she went back to work
i hope her Agency pays her good.

me.. ?
just back to my boring so-called life..
i still do know who im trully in love with


rented a bunch of Videos just to keep entwined
stuck in the room watching movies i missedbut who cares
sometimes in life maybe dwelves you into point
where you just dont know what you really missed
or maybe its just time to turn the phone offand have a liitle vacation in Social Siberia

I dunno...maybe texting Heidi and affirming were
both drunk at the same time againwill kill the boredome.
never realized parrallel universes could exist within friends

maybe thats why some were ment to meet.

i still have to install the new blinds i hate being alone in this big new apartment

everyday getting home wishing Riza would drop by..
and drink just to have some friend to talk tothose days in the old Pad.
thanks for keeping up with me Riz. you were there..whenever
and i never did have time to thank her.

I guess ill just have to go back to work again
I wondered why the ADB center
never have been a terrorist target diplomats from all accross asia
come and go everyday within the damn building

the guards were never nice to me even the way they looked at me

everyday i passed by

i think one of them is gay.

who cares ...

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

dear journal... Aug 10

went home at around 8 am
had too much work at the office for the whole fuckin night.
I was kinda a trippy then .. still dizzy..
after going up the ladder to cross the infamous Edsa
a girl and a guy came up to me Sir we have free coffee
This was at the cubao MRT station then
This girl dressed up in Red thin skirtand black shirt..
The cheerleader get up.i have to admit ..
she looks like one
and pretty too..
Nescafe had this new add campaign.
so i took my coffee and then these girls
and some of the guys they`re with while i was sipping my cup
closed in to each other .. drum rolls..and there goes their cheer..
It has been two successive days i saw them there
are they gonna do this for the whole week?
these girls were cute.
but i kinda got a crush on the one with the shades on
Im gonna talk to her tommorrow .
one good day coming up!

Sunday, August 08, 2004

dear journal... Aug 8

Today I decided to got to work...
I took the train ride this time ..
everyday i had to pass by Megamall..
as i was on my way on returning and renting some VCDs
the aisles were crowded ..
people were watching this band playing down
at stage of WOW phils.later did i know it was Raymonds band Sandwich .

People were going wild .
especially the Kids in the black shirts.
Then was it.
I was already just right above where the Skating Rink is
when I said to myself...
Am i hungry? hmmm.
I am ..
So turned back to go down to the food courtwhen ...
out of the blue.. I bumped in to ..Lisa J...!!! Shit !
I havent seen her in years!!She was my college buddy..
We use to hang out at the back of the Library
just to chat and smoke and chat and smoke and of course laugh.

Wow .. She just got here from i dunno where.
She said she just got here last Sunday.
and that shell be workin in SMART Wireless Megamall I couldnt believe this...
When all the while i was thinking that for the next few months my life will boringly suck.
Life Sucks !Tough Luck`s
I never thought that this country would be small enough to meet us again..
Its just great..!!
now thats`
what I Call.....

WOW Philippines .. .

Thursday, August 05, 2004

dear journal... Aug 5 2004

dear journal,

today a cute girl at work said hi to me.
today the bus was late and this one dude stunk.
today this other woman who i swear is a bum
totally sat on the same bus that i am two days in a row.
im on her commute!

today no one texted me :(
today i got a phone call from a girl
who i will fuckon saturday.
this is a journal where you can say those sorts of things,
its called wishful thinking
right now im watching Sandara`s Romance
i wonder if she really has one?.
earlier i watched Radioactive Sago Projects`
Music Video `ASTRO` my favorite
tomorrow is Friday.

journals suck.

today this girl got on her cam
and played with herself
while i watched.
true story.
we talked on the phone
she said this and that
and then showed me.

i am so far ahead
in the game of luck
its not even right.. .

Sunday, August 01, 2004

Time Travel

Paradoxes inherent in time travel have always provided inspiration for me. Assuming that a civilization has the technical capability to orbit black holes and move wormhole mouths, there is still the question of the time traveler\'s journey into the past and his possible influence on his own present existence. Black holes occur when stars of a certain size use up all of their nuclear fuel. A star in such a situation begins to shrink and become very dense; the more dense it becomes, the greater its gravitational field, to the point that nothing, not even light, can escape. An additional effect is a distortion of spacetime with a resultant slowing of time itself. Theorists speculate that at its heart a black hole must contain a \"singularity,\" a single point of infinite density where the laws of quantum mechanics no longer apply, an \"edge\" of the universe and of time itself. A person or object entering the singularity would be subjected to stretching and squeezing (literally squeezed out of existence), and would not survive to report the experience. However, there are those who speculate that a free-fall trajectory which takes a spacecraft close to the black hole, but not close enough to be swallowed by the singularity, would effectively be a one-way time machine. \"By choosing the right path around the black hole, such a journey, which might take a few hours according to the clocks on the falling spacecraft, could be made to take as long as you like according to the outside Universe.\" And your journey begins now.....with me.. for you are the Star ! and im the Black Hole just right behind you... And time is on my Side......... ~Shadow